Mendongak Ke Angkasa

Saya gembira ada line internet on this small satellite town. Walau signal ia tak seberapa tapi dapat juga saya mengarang blog ini. Thanks you Alice Spring.

Yesterday, a friend speaks to me about being jealous and how it hurts. Sebenarnya saya faham.. terlalu faham dengan erti kata JEALOUS in a real sense. How much it hurts. How painful it can be. How it could effect your own well being.

Maybe saya tidak selalu mengaku dengan wujudnya perasaan itu tetapi ia wujud and that's the facts of it. We can't get anything that we want becuase we were govern by comittments and responsibility. The aspects of being there but not really "there" sometimes do bring us to be delussional and selfish.

But selfishness is not a bad words if we were to relates it to JEALOUSY. JEALOUSY meants we care and we are afraid of losing to whom we relates to. I, without shames say, regardless to my big huge ego, admit that i too felt it.

How i wish i could say "CAHAYA MILIK SEMUA" to this friend.

How i wish i could be really opened and share the things i wanna share. Say words i can say. Write what i felt but.. alas.. i can't. I can't be open. I can't afford to stand on the lime light.

But this the song, i wanna share with those who are going thru with this FEELING. Sang by my fellow countrymate. As the lirik say " CAHAYA MILIK SEMUA"

Mendongak Ke Angkasa - Matt Angkie

Melangkah jalan laluan segala
Bertahun lama aku redah (aku redah)
Namun masih ada yang bisa bertanya
Aku...tak mampu menjawapnya

Mendongak ke angkasa
Aku tidak berdaya
Adakah lagi bintang bercahaya (bercahaya)
Mendongak ke angkasa
Aku tidak terdaya
Rupa-rupanya bintang berkata
Dan cahaya milik kita semua

Dan cahaya milik kita semua
Mendongak ke angkasa